Can't Sleep

Well here it is a month and a half later and once again it is 1 am and I can't sleep. I had the opportunity to give a talk in church two weeks ago and since it was about love, I took that chance to tell our story, although in a condensed version and now the urge has left me. Although I will copy and past that portion of the talk into a post so if anyone actually reads this they can see part of the story until I get the urge and time to talk about it again.
I often wonder why it is that I come home absolutely exhausted from working a 10 hour shift, can't wait to get into bed, and then lay here for hours trying to sleep. Maybe worrying about not sleeping is keeping me up? If only that was my only problem. My thought process progresses, and it seems like I can't stop it. Tonight it has gone something like this:
Can't sleep, want to sleep, but can't. I have a busy day tomorrow, I wonder if I will have to stay late again. If I don't fall asleep soon I will be so tired that I can't concentrate tomorrow and then I will definitely have to stay late. I wish I got paid more. I work way too hard for the little amount that I get paid. They say that I am amazing and they don't know what to do when I am out of the office, but I get paid less than the people that I run reports on. In fact I was getting paid less now than I was when I was taking the phone calls. I should look for a new job. No I can't, the insurance is too good. I hate being sick all the time. Why isn't my Ambien working? I wish I wasn't so tired all the time so I would have energy to play with my kids more. Hopefully this last surgery will help. I feel like my chest is about to fall out. (I just had my gallbladder removed last week and I had a hysterectomy in May) I wish I could sleep.
So after having this conversation with myself going on for the last couple of hours and having it repeat itself a few times I decided that I needed a distraction for a little while. So here I am.
On another note my kids keep getting bigger and smarter everyday. Elizabeth started Kindergarten last week. Grace just amazes me everyday with how sweet she is and how she can make you smile even when you are in the worst of moods. And Megan who is almost 10 months is standing on her own, and will be walking any day now.
My life is pretty boring though. I work for an airline and have done for two years now and I have gone on one weekend trip the whole time I have worked there. I am just hoping that I can have the patience to hold out working there until Mike finishes school. That way I can work part time and only work for the benefits.
Mike is going to school online and has finally chosen a major that I think he will stick with this time, IT security. He has changed his major so many times that his schooling hasn't gotten too far. But hopefully he will stick to this one and we can finally have some stability once he finishes school.
Anyway I digress, but like I said before I can't sleep and my thought process just progresses form one thing to another even if it doesn't make sense. I have now been writing for about 20 minutes and hopefully it is enough to get my mind to calm down and finally go to sleep.
Oh yeah I forgot to mention that Mike is snoring. I love him to death, but wow can he snore up a storm.